Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Unexpected Feelings

Part I, Newbies Update

The swinger newbies decided they were not ready for couples. They will take baby steps by starting out with a single girl to add to the mix. The husband was surprised at the way he felt when he saw his wife kissing my husband. It bothered him a lot. Although us kissing helped quite a bit, it didn't help enough to get him over the hump. In retrospect, I'm glad it happened that night and not in the bedroom. One experience of the other man not being able to perform because he was too jealous is enough to last me a lifetime. I don't need an encore. The wife tried to talk me into fooling around with her alone. She apparently is very attracted to me. She only repeated those words a billion times that night. She repeated it again when she was sober. I told her I'm still a newbie when it comes to girls. I don't think I can play with girls alone at this point.

Part II, Older Blonde

My hubby and I attended his friend's birthday party and there were a lot of new faces. One face belonged to a blonde in her late forties. She is attractive, no doubt. She took good care of her body. She looked really good for her age. My husband talked to her for a long time and showed a lot of interest. It normally would not bother me but it did. The weird thing is that it wouldn't have bothered me if she was the same age as I am. It's the fact that she's older and my husband was interested that bugged me. Strange.. The same feelings surface when hubby shows interest and compliments a woman whom I don't find attractive at all. If I agree with his assessment, I'm fine. I'm one insecure girl, that's no secret.

Hubby seems to think that it bothers me when he finds someone attractive whom I don't feel is better looking than I am. In this case, I'm offended he finds a lady older than me to be attractive. He thinks that I feel that the only women worthy of his admiration in front of me are women who are comparable or women who look better than me. I wish I knew why I felt this way. All I know is I don't like the feeling.


  1. what? I don't know if you're that insecure..the fact that you don't mind if your hubby is showing interest in someone that you also find attractive means you must have some trust/confidence!
    Which is a good thing.


  2. I agree with Eva about the insecurity thing but I'm not entirely convinced that you are 100% into swinging.

  3. Kitty Moore, in a way you are right. It's hard to be into it completely when it's difficult to find a good pair you can play with. It's usually harder to find an attractive male in a couple. When we do find a good one, I enjoy it thoroughly.